Searching for the truth
in streets I fear to walk
The truth is over there
I'm just afraid to talk
The masterplan is spoiled
I have to carry on
Live life day by day
The way it was before
Before I knew myself
and you were far away
What am I going to do
now that you're here to stay...?
Mind ramblings
This is the place where I unload all the thoughts that enter my mind and keep me occupied. Might not always make sense, so...enter at own risk.
Sunday, March 29, 2009
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
The night is my friend
It's a habit formed long ago, for me to be a nightbird and pull all-nighters, staying up all night and sleeping after 6-7 AM. So now, I'm sitting in front of my laptop again, with Manic Street Preachers blasting through my headphones; James Dean Bradfield sings emphatically, "I try and walk in a straight line, an imitation of dignity, from despair to where?" Tonight I'm more calm, without allowing my mind to wander off at all the hypothetical senarios that I usually busy myself with. I don't want to do that now. It stresses me to think about the future, the "what-if's", the possible outcomes. I've recently realised that I operate under a constant form of light stress, which is still enough to raise my heartbeat slightly; and all of it because I preoccupy myself with what *might* happen later. So strange, some years ago I was a person lost into my own world, without so many worries, without a black shadow looming over me...and now this. Is it true what they say, that "ignorance is bliss"? I'm beginning to think it is. In the past, I didn't worry, cause I didn't know. Now, I know...and that knowledge is starting to drive me crazy. But no, not tonight. Let the music carry me away, to a place where I can't hear my thoughts. Shhhh....
Wednesday, April 16, 2008
Beginning...
First post, wonder if I will actually begin...it's still a bit tough trying to get all of my thoughts out of my head and onto this blog; but we'll see.
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